pagina di diario (everybody's changing..)

Tutti stanno rapidamente cambiando. Beh, forse non proprio tutti tutti, ma quasi. V. is hanging with a different crew, but she claims that nothing has changed and she loves me the same cause she knows me from a very long time. Even thought I'm boring(or that's what things look like). T. has made a lot of new experiences and knew a lot of new people. My role in her life is definetely not the same anymore. That hurt me very much in the past, but now..seriously, who cares? I'll leave u out a bit. Even the girls of my class are all in a let's-stay-together mood. But I can't fake it. I'm not like them, I don't like the things that they like. And I can't help to think that in a couple of months I may not see them anymore. If all goes well. And so why do I have to spend time and energies trying and trying to create a relationship? I don't see the point.
Everybody's changing. But it's not like the song. Everybody's changing BUT me. And I feel exactly the same. Shouldn't I change too?
Maybe.
I don't like who I am sooo much. But a thing or two aren't so bad.
So..?
If everybody's changing, what can I do about it? Changing is often a good thing. But I feel like I'm beeing left behind. I wish that everything stayed the same. No problem, no worries.
Ma tutti stanno cambiando e anke l'ultima persona rimasta se stessa cambierà presto. E io rimarrò l'unico bruco in mezzo a tante stupide vanitose farfalle.

Get me

what do u do when someone u care about treats u bad? what do u u do when u find out that someone thinks something bad about u? I have about 3 best friends, and I found out that one of them is being untrue towords me. She basicaLLy said that she's so much better off me. That I am boring, she doesn't like to have me around. So, it's aLready the second time that something like this happends, and I just can't understand the whoLe point. I mean, I was offended by this and she answeared me that we are long time friends and it's not like she doesn't care about me, or love me. So..why aLL this? She was trying to make me laugh or make me enjoy the party that Thursday?? Oh, she was? Because I didn't notice that! We were both hanging around, with absoLuteLy nothing to do. We were both bored. What she was trying to do? I think that she was onLy trying to hook up with her classmate. I never thought that something like this couLd happen. Of course she was happier when I left! She couLd hug him, and kiss him! Go on girL! Let that morom fooL u once again! I love u, u know I do, but i get mad because he's tricking u and mostLy 'cause U DON'T UNDERSTAND ME. Why? I repeat it: if u don't like me, just stop talking to me. If I'm too boring, pLease just leave me aLone! It'LL hurt, but at least we'LL stop fighting once a month. Please, just think about it. But who am I kidding? u wiLL never read this.