so confused

I'm so damn confused!!!!!
I don't know how I feeL about him, and I aLways hated the fact that Joey Potter feLL in love with Dawson Leery, because they were friends!! that's something that can't be!!!!! right? I mean, if u know someone and he's a friend, u don't wonder how it wouLd be if things were different. u don't wanna be WITH him,,right?
A few days ago I ended up thinking that I was happy with being the same with him, and that if that lame bitch was the girL for him, then everything wouLd have been ok. His happyness is the onLy thing that matters. But,,I don't trust her!! And aLL these crazy thoughts came into my mind onLy when I heard about HER. Oh, I aLways had a bad opinion about her.
But, anyway, I'm confused. I feeL fine when he hoLds me..but is that enough? What if I did the big jump?(with one year of deLay). I couLd make a big mess. Do I prefer not to know? Does he?
So damn confused.